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This is purely a venting post on my part so don’t take personal offense to what I have to say. I just need to express myself and let it out! We got a call yesterday from Jason’s mom telling us that Jason’s ex-brother-in-law (xBIL) was killed in a car accident. Apparently xBIL was driving drunk, hit a car, which spun him into a telephone poll. He was killed instantly.
Luckily no one else was hurt or killed. xBIL leaves behind 2 children, 6 and 12 years old. He’s been a dead beat dad and an all around looser. I am so angry that he would be so damn selfish as to drive drunk and put so many innocent lives in danger!
Can you imagine what this selfish son of a bitch has done to his children!! Anyway, Jason’s sister wants him to attend the funeral and be there for her. So this weekend Jason will be driving 12 hours and spending time with them instead of finishing some obligations that he had promised to do here for me.
It is so frustrating that this poor excuse of a man (xBILL) has the power to effect my life this way. Here I am working so hard to be the best mother, wife, and woman I can be and this looser has to ruin a goal of mine that has been months in the making. Ahhh!!
I keep reminding myself that funerals are for the living not for the dead. And Jason will be there to support his niece and nephew, but right now it doesn’t help. The thought of Jason going to this man’s funeral where people will say nice things about him makes me sick!
Logically, I understand that I’m being irrational, mean, and unforgiving but right now I’m just angry!